there's just something about choosing to be homeless your mom can't tell you when to go to bed and your brother cried and cried and you're feeling cold inside and your girlfriend quit her job just to prove that she's in love. you slept out on the concrete last night. you made the world your sleeping bag tonight.

and i remember when i saw you at the art show i remember all the paintings that you did all the greens and blues and reds made magic happen in my head but your most poignant piece of art was all the track marks in your arm that your paper skin had almost nearly hid. way back then it felt like we were both just little kids.

so you got some of your buddies into smack cause you couldn't find a job with all that baggage on your back now your best friend's doing time your second best friend lost their life and the money that you made can't keep you high another day and the cops will swear you did it cause you're black. and i can't bear to watch you die a death like that.

cause you're the hero of a story that i authored but everytime we meet it gets rewritten and redoctored and there's always an excuse to why you do the things you do i am probably in denial cause your worst enemy is you yet i still pick up when you ring me everytime. even though i know my wallet's all that's really on your mind.

spacehead
half dead

you drifted through the galaxies of high school wrote bomb threats in the bathrooms of other people's planets now you're all grown up but you're still floating and the air is getting thin. your lungs ain't taking in. remember when the beauty of the stars kept you pissed at the folks who never ventured from the confines of the ship. i miss the astronaut who used to say fuck what's keeping you at bay but now he's running out of precious oxygen and i said

ground control to my old friends
the heroes and the heroin

one day i hope we meet again and channel all these shitty things into something way less shitty and a little bit more pretty and maybe give the world a little taste of something that it can't find all alone in outer space.

spacehead (x3)